Wednesday, August 27, 2014
Written August 27, 2014
I can live to face tomorrow...
My world has been totally rocked this past week. It's been a week since my sister and I made the trip to M.D. Anderson with my mom. Our first appointment to learn what we are up against.
Today, my mom went back to have her biopsy.
It was emotional. It was scary. And it was not the news we wanted to hear.
But even through last week, today, and I'm sure tomorrow - I can't begin to tell you how much we have felt God wrap his arms around us and love us. How much peace He has brought us. How much goodness He has already shown us. And mercy, and the list goes on.
Because He lives...
All fear is gone.
While my family has felt like the rug has literally been ripped out from underneath us, we have also felt God hold us like never before.
I guess that's what happens when a crisis comes. A true crisis - not the ones we tend to make up in our head. I think back to my life prior to last Monday when mom told us the news, the problems I once had seemed so minor. So meaningless. Almost absurd.
Because I know...
He holds the future.
Now as I look towards what is ahead, I can't help but be overcome with how much He loves us. Of course, this is not what I would chose for my mom but that's not up to me. What is up to me is how I choose to walk with her and Him over the upcoming months and years.
On my way home this evening, I looked out and saw the most amazing sunset. B was fast asleep in the backseat and I decided to pull over and snap a picture of His reminder - that even when we will feel like our world is falling apart, He is right here with us. Never forsaking us.
The first place to pull over was a church parking lot. I text this picture to my sister and she replied, "Man! He's with us at all times for sure!" In my heart that evening, after a very emotional day, I knew He was going to write a beautiful story through my mom. And that it would be okay. She would be okay. We would be okay.
I am so thankful for the little glimpses of miracles and hope he shows us everyday.
Because I know
He holds the future.
And life is worth the living, just because He lives.