Some things you just can't deny...

There are some things you just can't deny in this life.  And I'm not talking about denying the trivial things.  Like my love for a new pair of shoes or a fresh haircut.

For my birthday, I got not one but TWO pairs of shoes.  I must say that it made me feel like a whole, new woman.  I felt refreshed.  Ready to go.

But as my closet is filled to the brim, with many things that I very seldom wear or even notice, I have to wonder what it feels like to simply "need" something.

I mean truly need.

Then I'm reminded that God calls us to love big in this world.  To love like He did.  I recently finished Francis Chan's book and study, Crazy Love and it got me to thinking.

What does this mean for me, for my family?  To love like He did.  To live so passionately for God, it would be undeniable.

That I would essentially lose myself for His glory.

As I sat on my sewing room floor, dreaming up this monster I've been wanting to make Brady for sometime now...I begin to pick through my fabric scraps for just the right ones.  I wanted it to be perfect.  I wanted it to reflect the love I have for him.  I wanted it to be the best.

I started piecing him together.  Anxious of what the finished project might look like.  When all of a sudden, excitement begin to rise up in me.

I'm talking the pure joy kind of excitement.  The kind that feels as if you are bursting at the seams.

I was overcome with such joy, I noticed tears welling up in my eyes.  So many that all my pieces of fabrics were just a blur.

In that moment, it was exactly what I needed.  To hear the word of God speak.  To whisper in his ever-loving voice to me.  To hear truth.

It was what I had been praying for.

"This is what I want you to do: ask the Father for whatever is in keeping with the things I've revealed to you.  Ask in my name, according to my will, and he'll most certainly give it to you.  Your joy will be a river overflowing its banks!"  John 16:24, MSG

There is nothing on this earth or in my closet or on my feet that could refresh me the way He does.

And there is nothing like losing myself in order to follow the plans he has laid out before us.

Even if I'm scared.  Even if it's what I've praying about.  Earnestly seeking his wisdom.

There is no denying when God speaks to your heart. 

"I want to be near, near to your heart

Loving the world, hating the dark

I want to see dry bones living again

Singing as one..."